Dear Anonymous,

Thank you for the mysterious treat. 

It's been a year of few comforts;

you are a pillow.

<3

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To answer your questions:

1) I’m allergic to insincerity and vanity; I've no choice.

 

2) No, I just like their music. For lyrics, I turn to neither / visibilities. Give the album look for yourself a listen. It's beautiful, honest, painful. I've listened to it countless times and still my heart swells and stomach drops.

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3) Lol, yes... sometimes.

 

4) Yes, I’ve been working on one since April. It’s very large and complicated. I’ll post it here when it’s done.

 

5) The acceptance of moral ambiguity and the complexity of character; the necessity of intergenerational communication; and, for people to stop buying more than they need or to at least stop buying new.

 

6) Courage

 

7) The cello

 

8a) It was my ex-boyfriend’s. He hurt me very deeply and burning it helped me separate the fantasy of our love from the reality of his deceit.
8b) No, to be expected. Think of the harm you create. Think of the harm you endure.

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9) No, I’m far too frugal.

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10) I go for walks, I talk to my sister, I sit by the ocean, I take hot baths. Caring for horses helps tremendously. I also practice CBT, which keeps me from taking the same roads to nowhere.

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I can’t remember what I was listening to but someone somewhere said their therapist induced a panic attack as part of their therapy session and then timed how long the attack lasted. It lasted seven minutes. Seven minutes and the feelings subsided. I like this for a lot of reasons, primarily: It is important to remember the ebb and flow of emotion, and a great power to know the duration of each.

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11) My own hand when my doggie has died and my curiosity is sated.